Stresscation

"Stresscation"- a vacation that has turned completely stressful; no longer a joyful vacation; not fun; annoying; frustrating; not fun, ugh; fucking stupid; ew: Stresscation. (WARNING: This post may contain a lot of vulgar words).

I'm supposed to be going to California on 'vacation' in late August. I'm not looking forward to it. Nope, not at all. This really aggrivates me because normally I would be estatic at the idea of having a week off from work and not being in Arkansas. Not this time. Why, you ask? (I never hardly complain about Tyler's mother, but I can't help it). This vacation has turned stressful because of her. I understand that because she now lives in California, she and Tyler barely get to see one another. I get it, I really do. I'm all for going to California to visit. I love his mom, but the lady is stressing me the fuck out. First of all, Tyler and I do not make a lot of money. Yes, I work 40 hours a week, but I also put out a lot of money on bills and such, which doesn't leave me very much vacation $$$. This is an issue for many reasons.

1) She doesn't understand that a ticket one way is equal to one of my monthly bills. That equals two bills.
2) She doesn't understand that neither of us can afford taking more than a week off of work. This entails us not only spending money while on vacation, but not making a weeks worth of $$$.
3) I am also in the process of getting a better position. I don't know if I have it yet. I should find out this week. If I don't get, all I will have to ask off for would be the weekdays, since I already have the weekends off. If I get this new position, then that means I would have to ask for more days off in the long run.

THENNNNNN... We were talking about the trip via email and I told her that I am trying my hardest to work things out. I told her my situation and that I didn't want to jeopardize my current position or even ruin my chances at getting this new one. Sounds about right...right? Well, she pull the "importance" card. Meaning she said, "well good, it makes me feel important to you." Well lady, of course you are! But please, I'm begging you, PLEASE...that card is not needed. It only adds stress to the situation. It makes me feel bad about being concerned with my job; which I shouldn't feel bad for.

Now it's just one big stress ball forming in the bottom of my stomach. I have a stress baby. It's growing bigger and bigger and I hate it.

It also doesn't help when I'm trying to be a voice of reason for Tyler, as well. He works less than I do. Like, right now he's only part-time. He has recently complained about not having money, however, he's trying to get me to agree to stay even long than a week. I keep telling him that I know we're going to get there and we aren't going to have any fun because we won't have money to spend. We're going to break. Not just that, but when we get home we won't be getting a paycheck because we wouldn't of been working. He thought that he would only be missing four days of work, but I let him know that he'd actually be missing a full seven days. I think that may have woken him up a bit, but not enough. I told him,

"Ty, babe, I know you all too well. We are going to get to California and we are both going to be broke. You're going to get really frustrated and start cursing like none other and want to go home."

" He laughed (because he knows I am correct as this has happened before). I then said,

"Yep, you laugh because you know it'll happened. It happened in Florida last Summer...remember? And Tyler, you can get really frustrated with your mother, especially when she wants to do a lot of stuff of which you don't want to do. She's already mentioned stuff that she wants to do that you said you don't want to do. I know you, all too well, and I know that you will have a kiddie-bitch fest with that as well. Babe, add not having money and you're gonna wanna come back to Arkansas really fast...and I'd hate for us to come home frustrated to no paycheck."

I can be a real bitch when I know I am right. But GOOD GAWWWWWD, I know this is how it's all gonna go down!

Don't get me wrong, I'm sure it'll be fun, but I honestly feel like it won't be the best because I'm going to be stressed the whole time.

What do you think? Do you think I'm being super unreasonable? Do you think I'm being selfish?

Hi, my name is Alicia.

I feel as if I need to introduce myself again because I've been so distant. I swear I'm still here, for all of my 8 wonderful followers to follow :)

My life has been super busy lately. I am no longer a customer relations agent for Walmart, but an agent for Private Brands instead. I'm excited to be learning more about the company and expanding my education as a whole. It'll really help me I believe. I've been training for the position for about two weeks now from 7:30am-4:00pm Monday-Friday, so by the time I get out of work, I go straight home to enjoy an evening with Mr. Handsome. I get the weekends off and all to myself, which is absolutely wonderful. I'm in love with it to be honest, and it's a nice challenge.

Tyler is trying to be released from the Reserve as his contract is up, and he is then going to go Active, which I am very excited for him about. It's where his heart is set, and though I know it will be super tough (you military ladies are so strong for doing what you do), I know it'll all be worth it and I support him 100%.

This past weekend Tyler and I went to the River and kayaked for six miles. It was crazy fun and I got a pretty good tan. We went with one of my friends and one of his friends. The two didn't know each other, but they got along really well, so it wasn't awkward. lol Thank goodness. Afterwards, we went to dinner and then filed a police report...haha. Tyler's car got hit by an intoxicated driver the night prior. The fucker knew he did it and when we tried to call him to work things out, was completely and totally ignorant about the whole thing. The police spoke with him on the phone, but he was shady with them and wouldn't give them any of his information. I really do hate the cops here. They act like they are the shit, but when it really comes down to it, they dont' do ANYTHING! They knew this guy was in the wrong, but they blew it off and didn't continue any kind of search for him (even though he was completely unwilling with them). BLAH!

My teeth are moving pretty quickly! And you have no idea how much this excites me. :p I can't wait for them to be beautiful!

With the thought of moving to North Carolina, there is something I definitely want to do once I get there. I saw Lady (over at NoModelLady) promoting the Pin-up CherryBlossom photography and I want to do a shoot SOOOOO BAD! I have always wanted to do a pin-up shoot, and I think Tyler would enjoy it, as well. I think I'll wait until I get the braces off of course. :p

With a photoshoot in mind, that reminds me! I've been working out, running, and watching what I put in my body and it's been working!! YAY! I'm down to about 124 and just really trying to tone up a bit.

I'm really going to try to keep updating, but it's quite difficult being so busy all of the time...so until next time!