Mercedes Benz in My Mouth

haha... yep, you read that correctly. A mercedes benz in my mouth. That's what it's going to be like when I get all of this dental stuff done. I went to the orthodontist today for a free consultation and got a big slap in the face. I already knew that I was going to be forking out some money to have a healthy and pretty smile, but geeeeezzzzz.... Here's a little bit of information of what I need done (in detail)...

- April 22 I'm getting my four wisdom teeth taken out. I must do this before I get my braces, but I also found out that there are four other teeth that I need to get out, as well. Two from the top front, right next to my canine, and then the same ones on the bottom, too. The ortho said that I need these out because of my crowding and the very little space for my teeth to move when I get braces. Each tooth is a minimum of $260.00 to take out, so you do that math. The amount of room in my mouth isn't the only issue though. Because of my excessive overbite, my teeth do not line up correctly, meaning that the top teeth are not laying according to the correct bottom teeth.
- So, after I get eight(8) teeth taken out of my mouth, I can finally get braces. They will cost me $7,880.00; $6,380.00 out of pocket. And on the day I get them, I have to have a very large deposit. Luckly, I get the ceramic kind, so you won't be able to see them AS much. OHHHHH, but here's the catch... a few of my front teeth, both top and bottom's roots are very tiny so when the braces move my teeth to properly align them, there's a very, very, very likely chance that the roots will not be strong enough to hold in place, which means by the time I get older I could lose some of my teeth. -_- Really? Awesome.
- That brings me to my next operation: Accelerated orthodontics (AOO). AOO doesn’t just cut into the bone, but decorticates it – that is, some of the bone’s external surface is removed. The bone then goes through a phase known as osteopenia, where its mineral content is temporarily decreased. The tissues of the Alveolar bone release rich deposits of calcium, and new bone begins to mineralize in about 20 to 55 days. While your Aveolar bone is in this transient state, braces can move your teeth very quickly, because the bone is softer and there is less resistance to the force of the braces. Research has shown that after the Aveolar bone heals and the teeth are in their new desired positions, additional Aveolar bone has formed. (I got this information from the site: http://www.archwired.com/AOO1.html). What stinks about this is that it is about double the amount of regular braces, but I go from wearing them for 26 months to only 14 months. I like that a lot.
- AND FINALLY... What I didn't think would ever really have to happen, does. Orthognathic Surgery, AKA: I'm getting my jaws broken. Because of my disgusting overbite, I have TMJ, now overjet, and enamel wear and a pretty nasty looking profile because of my bottom jaw. I would need to have my top jaw cut in the middle, right underneath my nose, and widened from left to right so that my teeth can properly align and fit. I would also need my bottom jaw cut on each side and pulled forward so that I would no longer have my overbite. I haven't had my consultation for this yet, so I don't know the exact price for this surgery, but I'm guessing (from my hours of research) it's anywhere from $20,000-$40,000. It's a lot of money and I have NO IDEA how I'm going to pay for all of this, but with my constant headaches, locking jaws, and self-consciousness, I believe that it'll all be worth it in the end.

I can't lie, I thought that the braces would just fix everything, so when I was at the orthodontist today and they gave me my laundry list of dental issues, I cried. And I felt so stupid about it, but they understood. I'm a young 20-something year old paying for this all on my own and it's a very big deal to me. Tyler went with me and I know he didn't expect me to cry there, but he was such a good sport and was very good support. When my appt was over and we were in the car, I just started sobbing and he just looked at me and smiled and said that it's all do-able, and that we'll figure something out. :) I love him.

So, when I'm done with it all, whenever that'll be, I'll have so much money in my mouth that it will be like a mercedes in there.

...I've always wanted a pretty red mercedes :P

Sarcastic Sammy

Good fucking lord. Not the prettiest and most 'lady like' use of language, but eff! Why are people so damn rude? I'm having the toughest time right now with a particular someone and I cannot take the sarcastic wordage and asshole mannerisms that I'm receiving lately from them. What the hell did I do?!?! Not a damned thing so be nice to me! Eff Eff Eff Eff Eff!

I really try to be positive all of the time, but lately, with all of this negativity floating around me, it is hard to keep that kind of wonderful and chipper attitude alive.



PS: I promise I'll stop with all of the whiny post, but we're all entitled to a few sob days, right?

Emotional Nutcase / I Have No Idea / Please Tell Me If I'm Wrong

So lately I've been in the WEIRDEST mood ever and I hate it. I'm not sure what is up with me and I really wish I did. Sometimes I can just through the day and not even know what to say to people because I feel completely blank and I'm not sure as to why this is. This has been happening for the past week and it's bothering me a lot. I'll admit that I have a few "jealousy" issues; I am a bit insecure. I think this has a lot to do with it, but I don't want to completely blame it on that.

Please correct me if I'm totally and completely wrong in this, but...here we go.

Tyler has been training really hard to succeed in what he wants to do in the Army and I've been trying very hard to support him because I know it's what he really wants. With that said, I've been trying to motivate him by going rucking with him for miles, I've tried to motivate him to wake up earlier to get his PT in and because I'm trying to get into better shape, I've done it, too. The issue is that he is very hard to get up early in the morning...so many mornings this has failed and we end up not doing anything PT like together. I'll admit, when we have ran together, I'm not a great runner and I'm not near as fast as him or can go as many miles as he can, but I try and I mostly do it for him. You can say that I want to be his little cheerleader. Recently, he's started running with one of his guy friends and a girl that he works with. She's two years younger than us, and as I know he loves me and all (yadda yadda yadda), I don't feel like it's okay that he is getting support from another female. I'm kind of okay with it since it's with a guy too, but he said that he'd do it with just her if the guy friend didn't want to. Before you tell me I'm crazy for feeling this way, let me explain. He chooses to run with her because she can do so very fast and can run for miles...which is good motivation for him. I understand this, but I know that if things were flipped, if I was training for something, there was a guy that was a great runner and I was running with him, not Tyler (regardless if he couldn't keep up with me and that was my excuse), he wouldn't approve at all. And I'm not just assuming that he wouldn't approve, I asked him if he would approve and he said that he would not. Now, in relationships, I'm all about equality and I feel like this is not equal AT ALL. I do not feel like he should be getting support and motivation from another damn chick and it really, really, really aggrivates me. It's really been bothering me, and because of it, I have been trying to run and gett better at running so that he understands that I can motivate him, too. I don't know how this sounds to any of you, but when he's getting support and motivation from another female, it makes me feel like I'm not doing good enough. So now I feel like I'm building a complex and competing with this girl and it's driving me insane. I'll go ahead and say that I honestly feel like I'm not 'good enough' and not supportive enough for him, in this aspect, and it really hurts my feelings. I know I am, I now just feel like I need to prove it.

Blah, I'm not proud for letting this get to me, but I can't help the way things make me feel. Sorry for gramatical errors, it's just not my day.

Netflix for Learning

We have Netflix, not cable and we watch so many documentaries with it. We've been watching a lot of space and universe ones and it's so interesting. Ty's really into astronomy and it's pretty neat because I get to learn new things. Our universe is absolutely amazing!



Here are just a few photos from our night last night:

PS: You know how I was trying to get into a little better shape?
I'M DOWN TO 124!!! yaya!!!

I don't EVER normally do this...

...but I'll admit that Tyler and I went out last night for a friend's birthday and it (I)got a little crazy. I don't usually drink, it's just not for me, and I've never been one for alcohol, but last night I had some (a lot) and this morning I was paying for it. I don't remember the ride home that much, except for stopping at my old high school for a few minutes... (Don't worry, Tyler didn't drink a drop :D). It was a fun night, and I took a lot of pictures since there were a lot of old friends there, but I haven't looked at them yet.... Tyler was afraid of me deleting the ones I didn't like and he wants to be able to make fun of me for looking stupid... He's so sweet. But really, he is...cause when we got home and we were getting to bed, I was obviously not feeling well so he, without me asking, took my extentions out of my hair and put them up for me! I mean, what?!? When I woke up this morning I was feeling my head to take them out and almost freaked because they weren't there and that's when he told me what he did. The thought of it makes me giggle a little, but I think it's sweet...I just wish I remembered him doing so.

I'll just go ahead and ask for you guys to NOT think that this is something I do all of the time. Like I said earlier, I'm not a drinker or a partier, but last night I decided to live it up a little... (a lot).

Something that was strange at the party was when one of my friends pulled me to the side and started asking me about another one of my (ex-not by choice) friends. To make a long story short: I had this friend in HS who I, and a few other of my good friends was close to, that for some reason, right before her wedding, decided to drop us (and for some reason, especially me) as friends. None of us know why, and when I confronted this person about it, they said "not to take it personal, we were never that really good of friends in the first place". Needless to say, I took it personal...I (as were the other friends) were supposed to be her bridesmaids. Anywayyyy....between all of that, they for some reason deleted me from their Facebook and I hadn't talked to them since them until they had something very tragic happen to them. I felt like, being the good person I am and the good friend I KNEW I was, I should try to add them as a friend again and show them support. I did that and I text them, as well and even went further to show them support, even though I wasn't given the respect from them that I deserved. Over all, I did the right thing. Well a little after this bad news, after we were friends again on FB and such, someone comments on my status saying that they've gone 6 months without sex because of the Army...this pissed me off, considering there are other things to be upset about and that he should be thankful that he's still alive considering so many of our troops are dying everyday. This ex-friend I guess took my comment towards this soldier the wrong way, and jumped my case about it saying that I should be ashamed of what I said, and that I was disrespecting the military... and other things. Which I was not doing. I was upset that SEX was all he could think and worry about when there are FAR MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO CONSIDER. Anyway...once again I was deleted from this ex-friends FB and since have not heard from her or heard anything about her except that she's not doing too well considering her tragic loss (which I'm still sorry for). The friend at the party was asking me what I thought about how she was living her life now, post tragedy, and how I feel about it. That's when I thought to myself...throughout our whole friendship, why the hell am I the bad guy? I haven't done ANYTHING! And if something was said that I did do, then why wasn't I confronted?!? I told the friend that I had no opinion because I didn't know how she was handling things or what her life was like because she blocked me from everything and my (at party) friend couldn't believe it. I'm pretty shocked at some of the things that I was told last night, and though I know that it's not the best idea to listen to gossip, I believe some of what I heard just because I know of this persons past. I hope for her every day because she doesn't deserve what she is going through right now, but quite honestly, I deserve the respect as well. She'll be moving back here soon and I'm curious how things are going to work out since everyone's been pushed away. I'm obviously keeping this person's name out of this, as I do believe that some of you may follow her on here, but I felt the need to rant. Thank you.

On a lighter note, it's Spring Break which means....no school! PLUS, one of my friends is going to be moving into the same complex as I live in and I think it'll be so much fun. She is a hoot and though we don't ever hang out much, I trust her so much and can talk to her about anything.

I plan on posting pictures later once they're on my laptop and let you guys see my "party outfit". I thought it was pretty cute and I'm excited to start this fashion thing!


Love,

Looking Good!

I completely changed my blogs look...hot pink, lime green, and flowers aren't usually my thing, but I've seen a lot of really cute layouts lately that have all of these characteristics. Let me know what you think!

Behavioral Things

So I had an interview today...for a Merchandise Group Lead, which is way better than what I have now, or so I tell myself. It is in a completely different department, thought the same building, and I'm SO ready to transfer and grow. I'm a "D" and this title would entail an "F"..if that means anything to you...

I'm just ready to promote, :p

Today was my first interview, which entailed a lot of behavioral based questions, and if I scored high enough on this one, I should know in about a week or so whether or not I get a second interview...which I'm sure is full of many more bahavioral type questions. YAY!

I'm definitely hoping for the best! Hope everyone is well and will blog again soon!

love,

Found:

This isn't really a post, but I can't help it! I found two photos on my computer from last Summer and wanna share. I CANNOT wait until Summer! BRING IT!

A few of the guys decided to throw me across the pool. I almost freaked out once I actually got in the air because none of us realized that there was an electricity line right above the pool until I almost hit it. I probably looked like a bird that forgot how to fly once I saw it. :P

and then there is Tyler and I playing a game of chicken. Oh dear Summer, I love you.

I'm Here!!!!

I've been slacking...I really, really have. I've been on here and have kept up with everyone else but have failed to update my life...but I have good reasoning... too much work and school meaning I'm hardly EVER home! Whenever I do find the sparest of my time, I don't really like to be home...but instead... I love driving around aimlessly listening to music. Unfortunately, I believe soon I'm going to have to find a new hobby since gas is so damn expensive. Speaking of which, I've been thinking about trading in my adorable little Jeep for a Prius. I'm not in love with them, but if they save me a lot of money on gas, it may just be worth it. I'll let you know when that decision is made.

Oh yeah! I don't think I've mentioned it on here, but Tyler and I really want to go to the Grand Canyon this Summer and hike it for a few days. We just recently submitted our trip plan to them and a few days ago received notification that we are approved! As of now, we will be in the Canyon on May 17, 18, 19, and 20! We are so excited...and I'm a little nervous. Since Tyler is all 'hooah' about the Army and staying in good shape, he's been rucking a lot lately and I've decided that I need to start doing it with him because I'm going to have to carry a 40+lbs ruck. Quite honestly, I'm not there yet so this will be good training; plus I need to get bikini ready anyway because after the Grand Canyon is CALIFORNIA! Oh man, I am pumped...so so so pumped!

Alright, anyway. In other news. Here's another topic I'm estatic about: dental hygiene. Mine, more importantly. Okay, so judge me if you want, but up until last Tuesday I had never been to a dentist. Not because I didn't want to, but because my mom never took me to one. I guess she never found it ... important? Believe me, I wanted to badly. I recently just got dental insurance with Walmart because ultimately, I want straight teeth...no more crowding please! Of course, before you can get braces or anything of that sort, you need to see a dentist. So, I went and amazingly, out of my 20 years of living, I only have one cavity!!!!!! I am pretty anal about my teeth though, so thank goodness for that. I am getting it filled on 3/22, but on 3/16 I have to go see an oral surgeon to schedule an appt to get my wisdom teeth out 0_0
They have been slowly making their way in and need to come out before I get braces or invisalign. Also, I'm pretty sure I'm also going to to have my jaw broken and reset. I have a terrible overbite and I've been told this by an orthodontist before (been to them, but not the dentist...weird I know, right?). I would hope that this surgery would help with not only my TMJ, but also my migraines.
Doing all of this makes me feel even more like an adult because instead of having mommy pay for it like most do, (and I am in no way insulting anyone as I wish I could have had that help)I'm going to be paying for it all out of my pocket. It's going to be tough to pay for, but I want to do this so bad...my smile is a huge insecurity of mine. I'm just glad that my teeth are healthy and that we can start on this sooner rather than later.

And for the last topic: Fashion. I love it. I love dressing up and looking pretty in cute heels and pretty tops, but I never have the drive to put things together. I know how to dress up and I can do it well, but I never do. I'm not saying I dress like a slob, but I'm saying I wanna look like freakin hot stuff! :P If any of ya'll have any fashion advice, throw it over here! I'm going to start posting pictures of all of the outfits that I throw together that I feel are worth of showing. Let me know what you think! To end, here are some pictures that I've taken lately!

Love!

haha, the unexpecting camera slore!

This is our "Army closet". However, most of the time, we have an "Army floor".

I love this picture of us :) I just love him so much! :P