Complicated

Have you ever felt like a completely complicated soul?

There are times when I feel like I'm a really hard person to figure out, and if someone were to try to put my puzzle pieces together, they would never glue me together. I have so much emotion inside of me, scars from my past that make me who I am, but they still sting sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I'm a very happy person, but I'm complicated.

Oh to be young again...

Alright, I know I'm not old, not by any means whatsoever, but, I do really, really miss everything about high school...more notably, my senior year. I've said this before, but I want to share a few photos of my senior year because I loved it so much. There were plays for drama, there was pom/cheer and all of the friends I had on the team, pep rallies, just awesome classes I had....ahhh to go back for a month...I'd be in love!

Some photos from then...

Congressively (yes, I know this isn't a real word) Cool

So...Tyler was done with the Army Reserves over a month ago, but was never given his IRR orders. He did his part, got the packet altogether, but to his chain of command, it just wasn't important. On Tuesday, he went to the Congress office and asked for them to speak to the Colonial. They did, his ass was chewed out, and Tyler's pack is now where it should of been a month ago. He's going to be signing up for Active duty here soon. He is ready for it. He's been training so hard for this. I think he'll do great. We are excited to see our news lives start off!

Blondie

No, I haven't gone back to being a blonde, but I really, really, really want to. It's too fun, plus it makes my hair appear thicker...

Decisions decisions.

Exciting news... Kind of...

I'm going to see Ke$ha. haha, this outta be fun! I've heard a lot of crazy stories with her shows. I'm pretty excited, I can't lie.

Kissing Families

Stop the season stop the sting
A plastic mic a broken string
Infected wound from a rusty ring

Soon you'll be there too

Kissing families can't recall
A program to derail us all
Forgotten prison it's been safe 'til now

It's no wonder that we did it this way
Keep looking forward on paths sideways
It's everything that is connected and beautiful
And now i know just where i stand
Move on
Roll along
Not today
It's everything that is connected and beautiful
And now i know just where i stand

Thank god you're heart is too close

This can be the bitter end
I know it wont

Well someone said i made a mistake
Kept looking forward on paths sideways
It's everything that is connected and beautiful
And now i know just where i stand
Seasons always shift too late
Spent too much time now on paths sideways
Everything that is connected and beautiful
And now i know just where i stand
Thank god it's over....


My favorite song.
"Kissing Families" by Silversun Pickups. I don't know why exactly, but the lyrics, the instruments, absolutely everything about this song just makes me fall in love. I heard it during a hard time in my life, and since then it stuck. They've played it both times when I saw them live and honestly, the second time...I cried. It's that great to me. I will forever be in love with the Silversun Pickups.

*Image taken by me!* (Front row baby!)

Reaching Out

There is someone that I really want to reach out to and just try to help with the best of my ability. They are going through a really tough time right now, and they have been for a few months, however, they completely shut me out of their life for a very stupid reason. Something that they jumped to conclusions about and thought that I was attacking something that I was not. Some guy in the Army put a really immature comment on my facebook about the one thing they were the most upset about, not being able to have sex, and I reacted telling him that he should really be thankful that he's still alive. I meant this in this way: there are so many men and women losing their lives overseas and all this guy can think about is sex? It really annoyed me. Well, the person I am wanting to help took it the wrong way, told me I should be thankful that I'm still alive and said that I should be ashamed of myself for disrespecting him and anyone in the military. I was clearly, in NO WAY whatsoever, doing this. That's crazy. I have the upmost respect for everyone in the service, I was just perturbed by this guys selfishness, especially since he was single and just wanted a good time.

Well, I still really care for this person's feelings and it really kills me to see that she is hurting so badly. We went to school together, were really good friends during Senior year, but for some reason, something just went wrong. Many of you probably follow this person on here, and would understand what I'm trying to say and why I want to reach out to her so badly, but I honestly feel like my efforts would be shoved to the side and not appreciated at all. I've tried before, and that happened.

Spirit Week

This week at work has been spirit week. We've had different themes each day and we all competed as teams on who wore what the best. Monday was decades day. I wore a tye-dye peace sign shirt with peace sign earrings, a long flowy skirt and my hair in a headband head wrap. Tuesday was crazy hair or hat day. If I would have thought about it, I would of just worn one of Tyler's patrol caps, but it didn't cross my mind until after. Instead, I wore my hair extentions, but only some of them. lol Not only were they not all there, but they don't really match my hair color any longer either :p Wednesday was bandana day. This one wasn't fun. I hate bandanas, so I just dressed nice and threw one in the back pocket of my jeans. Thursday was Hawaiian day/beach day. Again, I don't have themed items, so I wore a black maxi dress with a aqua cartigan over it.

Today is my favorite theme day! It's RED, WHITE, and BLUE day!!! I'm definitely pro-America (haha) so I soaked this one up! I'm wearing a blue and red striped shirt that has a cute little blue bow on the back. I'm wearing white capris and shiny red wedged heels. I feel very patriotic, but nautical, as well. I love it. It makes me even more excited for the fourth to hurry up and be here! So pumped you don't even know!


Update on the position I'm trying to get: there isn't one. I still don't know. It's been wayyyy tooooo longggg and I haven't even heard a no yet. I think at this point I just want to know if it's a yes or no because the waiting sucks. A LOT. It has been two weeks now!!!

Tyler and I rucked (of course, I didn't have a ruck on) at a very fast pace last night. We did a total of five miles and it felt like victory. I was extremely tired and wanted to go to bed, but it's important to me for him to know that I support him and want to be his motivation...so I sucked it up and went with him. I didn't gloat or anything about being a trooper (I feel pretty good for helping him with his training), but he willingly acknowledged that I'm very supportive and motivating for him. I really like hearing him say that. It made my night, and made me feel awesome for not sleeping when I really wanted to. Go team!

Tonight I'm camping. This could be good...or it could be bad. I hate the heat. I hate not having my bed. I hate bugs. Bugs used to not like me, but this Summer they are eating me up. I'm not sure why, but my legs look absolutely atrocious from being bitten so many times. Tomorrow we are all going to the river and floating. I am excited. I love the river, and I love getting a tan.

I hope everyone has a delightful weekend and FOURTH!!